17/20 For me the element of imposter syndrome was also a huge factor. Getting into academia, I always felt was a massive slice of luck. And at any minute it could all be over. Choosing to leave HE I had to confront the notion that I was an imposter, because in the end I couldn't hack it.

18/20 As universities now operate under neoliberal models, the notion of academic identity needs to be rethought. That probably has to be something that only individual academics can do themselves. It's the massive elephant in the room, just how much HE function on goodwill of the staff.