this isn't the kind of brain that can make good decisions like effectively communicating. this is the kind of brain that lies low and does what it can for now and hopes for the best i desperately want to talk to them more. for now all i seem to be able to manage is a single message when I wake up

when i'm in a situation that's even a modicum less abusive, I hope I'll be able to open up and talk to them more that's my only new years resolution