yeah, i really like your observation. upon rereading that piece, it also struck me that she doesn’t deny thinking about killing herself when asked directly by the author of the profile.

it makes me think so much about thérèse of lisieux, and how, like, the claim to her holiness was not that she was satisfied by faith but that she had the will to transform herself into a person who could be satisfied by faith en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Th%C3%A...

Thérèse of Lisieux - Wikipedia