I spoke about this with someone else but there’s always this tinge of….. disappointment, for lack of words. no that feels a little harsh. maybe it is just grief too. grief both in missing Dan Feng, the person, and grief in the mistake he did

ahhhh man though jing yuan the guy who is filled with grief and is old and all that and yet he strides on with something like hope. he is so full of life and mischief still, just as he was when was young, but there’s just the added weight of grief, age, experience….