i just have to deal with the reality that i will never get into another relationship because of my (now)unrequited feelings. besides, i can never shut up about her most of my coworkers know about my entire situation and theyre like "hey it might still work out!" big doubt

i jsut feel like. banging my head on the wall at times. my catshark plushie i bought on the con is now strictly associated with her and i just keep hugging it tightly just because of the association we slept on one bed and i woke up next to her and i just was like "fuck i want to nuzzle into her"