I'm doing a lot better. I'm happier, safer, shedding a lot of shame I picked up in a not great living situation, and having fun drawing again. It's nice being able to be self-indulgent!
The longer answer is that being 2 years deep in on E made me have to figure out how I even engaged w/ stuff! Relearning how your libido works is weird, but I wasn't losing my kinks so much as I just had to relearn what made them fun for me. I was also just too stressed to be kinky!
As a heads up- over the past 2 years I had a lot of weird feelings about my kink art, the stuff I was drawing, etc and for a while I made it seem like I was moving away from them/possibly quitting them entirely. The short answer to "will Grind still draw huge stuff/weird stuff" is Yeah I Will
stretchmarks and veins! they're important...