I wonder if there's been a systemic failure with certain insurance companies. Mine suddenly can't find me for the purpose of some Very Important medication I need.

"Cis" is not an insult. Transphobes are just living to pretend to be victims 24/7.

Let's bring back top hats. But, like, for everybody. As a unisex headwear item.

It really sucks I have so few people left in my life that I can be real with because everyone else either is or turned into a batshit bigot. and I'm so tired. And now I'm trying to quietly disappear from this guy's radar and it's hard because he's used to CHECKING ON ME to make sure I'm okay.

And "you'd have to be stupid to approach someone with a gun anyway". And I'm just like.. they're kids. with rocks. "Well they could really hurt someone with those." Worse than a GUN?? And he's gotten immeasurably worse since last year.

He's just obnoxiously anti-Palestinian as of a couple years ago when I showed him video of some palestinian kids throwing rocks at IDF soldiers and then GETTING SHOT and he was like "well the video isn't showing everything so they no doubt did something to deserve it."

Now it seems like just because his sister married a Muslim guy, he's gone full Zionist. Like, he's part Jewish by ancestry but nobody in his family practices the religion or speaks the language as far as I know and he doesn't have any family in Israel that I know of.

I'm so disappointed with one guy I was friends with for years - DECADES, even. Like, we were close friends. Talked each other out of suicide a few times. He was a huge anti-fash and anti-Nazi left-anarchist guy and regularly got in fistfights with them.

Happy T-day to me... 5 years ago today I started microdosing with an amount that still had me within typical female range (because I was borderline low-T even for a woman) but was helpful for my general mental health because at least it was SOMETHING.

I want to read the rest of this book of poetry. Kids are just raw af.