I am managing end of life care for my aunt and every time I realize there is a new task I have never thought of before and which needs immediate handling I look around wildly for an adult and then I remember I am the designated adult

Similarly, when I accomplish or even figure out the first step for a task I keep feeling like I should be given a cookie but I am in charge of my own cookies and that's not the same Also then my depression helpfully goes "hey guess what you're gaining weight" Anyway I've started prozac

God, I know this feeling. I'm so sorry you're going through this - remember to take care of yourself too during this time, it's amazing how quickly we forget ourselves 💜