I couldn't fit the entire explanation of my furry name, so I did it as a photo from a Samsung Notes app! 😁 I put WAY too much thought into my name, when I chose it... 😅

Inside me, there are 2 little personalities: ● One that's constantly concerned and Goes through a lot of effort to hide their diaper in public. ● One that doesn't care. Intentionally wears tighter, thinner clothes, hoping their diaper bulge is visible, stretches in public hoping their diaper peaks.

Honestly, when you think about it. There is nothing more punk rock than going against the norm and flaunting your love for diapers in the face of the Puritan hatters! 😉 😈🤘FUCK THE POTTY!🤘😈

What if I get a potty lock? 😅 I bet that would count... 😳

Ugh, I have too many family events to wear diapers all of December! 😧 I can't show up to my dad's wearing a diaper! 😖 Can't I just do Diapertober instead of Locktober? 😖

*snugs*

Make sure you're safe. *hugs*

I know I will feel better in the morning, and I'll likely feel stupid for these posts. However, getting how I feel out, no matter how confusing helps and is part of my process. Tonight should probably be a bed time diaper kind of night.

I know I'm not making much sense. I'm finding it difficult to communicate how I feel, but I guess... at the end of the day, this is why I feel the ideas of Yin and Yang are so important. I think the way to move past this is to realize you have to accept the positive and negative feelings exist.

In reality, only I can blame myself. That's when I feel stupid. I know that I'm not doing enough, I'm not the best version of myself, and I'm didn't communicate better. I think I can only blame myself, which isn't easy. I just need to be better. I need to adjust my expectations for myself & others.