Hi all, hope you are well. Sorry to not much connect to y'all. I just recently don't know how to live a life. The most cruel month May really hit me bad, especially when I encouraged myself to send 'gratitude for parents' message to my very remote parents. Soon after all traumatic events(1)

flashed back to me and I had, and still having panic attacks. Drastically crying even though I thought I got over all my past. No, they were just buried, instead gone away. This will end soon, I hope-I guess I just need to do some cardio to forget them. I know I have been lucky but(2)