I don't have any massive goals in life. I just want to work, save money, afford living/surviving and mend my mental health... I don't see myself with a social media presence. I like being a nobody. The trauma, hurt & pain is too deep that I actual avoid making new friends & socializing..

In my childhood life, I was abused so severely that police came by my home twice. One was because the neighbors hears us screaming and crying in fear and pain. My dad & my grandparents made up some excuse to say they were just disciplining their kids. But no, this wasn't the case. (1/2)

I have been ripped from any major goals in life for the past 11 years. Every goals, dreams, hopes & dreams. Now I just want to survive and avoid anything that could hurt me & try to cry less.. i feel no hope, keep everything and anything to myself... i only use this account as my journal..

I made choices I'm not proud of. Emotional, impulsive, ragged, tired... but I choose my path and I have to keep pushing, work harder...please never expect or rely on your partner for everythjng. Take care of yourself, make your own income for sanity sake.

The people who hate you, will never find it enough how much they want you to suffer. They wish for you to suffer for the rest of your life, forgetting you're just like them, human. We all want to live our lives, be happy. Grudge is toxic, move on and focus on your life. Their battles isn't yours.

Fighting depression do often, I tried to avoid people cuz I dont wanna get hurt.. but when I socialize with an old friend, I got mentally destroyed again cuz they try to use me to help themselves. How? She try to "vent" that she needed money to buy groceries when they had 170 dollars, and (1/2)

I told myself that I could live a happy life without struggle. That I *needed* that life. But I saw someone that was falling. Deeper and deeper, alone, sad, angry at the world. I knew them for years. It didn't sit right with me to watch them fall. So as a final act (1/2)

I'm for some reason ends up being someone's first choice to dump their problems onto me & they repeatively will tell me their same problems every time I'm in a call with them. For some reason, they wait/expect to solve their problems for them. My suggestions is for them to do things (1/2)

I want to overdose so badly... I'm already starting to lose myself & my sanity..no motivation, no future im looking forward to... waiting to get out.. i want to go missing & be forgotten.. im so tired.. of being me... of being alive...

You can get your heartbroken from friends just as bad as any relationship. My heart still hasn't healed. Its beyond damaged & I have very very little trust.. my chest still hurts & feels tight. Having a partner doesn't mean they can solve damage made by/from other people.