Did the #ActuallyAutistic feed break or did I break something for myself

Today was the first time I've been bouldering that I left feeling defeated instead of exhilarated... Climbing with submuscular implants feels very strange & my body doesn't seem to trust the muscles in my chest now. I did get to the top of a lvl 0 so at least I tried, I guess

Was not prepared for the absolute havoc that instant-onset pharmaceutical-grade menopause is wreaking on my everything.

Fuck I'm gonna have to grieve some shit. Inconvenient as hell. -75 baquillion out of 5 Can we just not?

ok so i guess i'm back

No thoughts, just screams

I finally watched the Barbie movie today & cried like 3 times what the fuuuuuuuuck Perimenopause plus audhd plus just having gone through a double mastectomy is a potent ass combo y'all....

But fr though... What the hell are you supposed to DO if you can't shower bc post-op & you also can't handle the residue from a shower wipe thing & sponge-bathing makes you so cold that it hurts, but you're so ITCHY & grimy from not being able to truly CLEAN yourself that your brain goes on strike?!

Pinballing through my house singing the only 3 lines from that Pinocchio song Dave remembers bc I got my drains out today!!

Everyone being very kind & checking on me: omggg are you okay?? How are you feeling??? Me, an AuDHD-er with a high surgical pain tolerance who is currently on a post-op adhd med vacation: