i don’t want to have to be resilient. i want good things to happen to me

bro same if only for the novelty of experiencing something totally unfamiliar

Good Luck, friend

idiot that i am i still believe there are good things and bad things

That’s how I stay resilient, remembering when bad things are happening, that good things will happen, too- I just need to keep keeping on. I get a lot of my self-esteem based on my resilience. The things I have survived: I tell myself I must be incredibly strong to still be here. It’s how I cope

at this point it doesn’t matter for me, after having good things happening to me i just noticed it’s not the same anymore

I hug. Sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, I hug your wee heart until the next good thing.

no you gotta endure all the multiple truckloads of shit we throw at you so we can pity you if you perish or call you brave if you survive

Trauma has tainted the prospect of happiness for me. I've reached out for help and it always amounted to nothing. You reach a point where happiness is such a vague foreign concept that I wouldn't be able to trust it. It's like a nice pair of shoes that you know that will be soiled in shit eventually

But one day you might want to do something difficult or dangerous. Then you need resilience , which you're more likely to have if good things happened to you before.

Just gotta cultivate your chi for a few thousand years