i just got my heart broken earlier this week and like....there's a lot of firsts this time around that im having trouble coping with. for one, i don't ever continue having a friendship with the person after the fact(im usually too hurt by the abuse ive suffered) and i also don't normally get

rejected usually it's too one sided to feel like a rejection or i get ghosted. and we were once head over heels for each other and i guess the major sting from all this is that i realize in my subconscious ive been holding onto him all this time. which is what brought me to tell him i had feelings