values me enough to remain friends but fuck.....if he inevitably moves on i don't know how i'm gonna feel 🥺 thanks for coming to my ted talk.
but anyway....i'm coping fine i think but when im alone it feels fucking awful, like i never should have broken up w him in the first place. but i really wanted to stay single/celibate and i let him slip through my fingers over time and i will never not be hurt by this 😭 im grateful he at least
huge fucking mistake (not cheating i just prematurely pushed him away in order to protect myself from his sense of humor) and by doing this i not only hurt him but myself. im just rambling bc i dont have any friends 😅 and the two that know know that i sound like a broken fuckin record atp
for him in the first place. idc if he sees this because we have no animosity towards each other but i think im just shocked that i would suppress these emotions for so long that id let it eat me alive for 6 fucking months. 😭 i think the time passage apart from him is what made me realize. i made a
rejected usually it's too one sided to feel like a rejection or i get ghosted. and we were once head over heels for each other and i guess the major sting from all this is that i realize in my subconscious ive been holding onto him all this time. which is what brought me to tell him i had feelings
i just got my heart broken earlier this week and like....there's a lot of firsts this time around that im having trouble coping with. for one, i don't ever continue having a friendship with the person after the fact(im usually too hurt by the abuse ive suffered) and i also don't normally get
im right there with you babe!! 🍻🫶🏼
thank you for sharing this pain with me 😭💔🥺🫶🏼 i've had it on repeat all day yesterday 😭😭😭
it's so insane that he doesn't have it on spotify it's deadass my favorite song of his 💔 (and in case you're interested, the original track is by lazerhawk with the same name. THAT one is available on spotify) just idk, the lyrics they hit me soo good 😭😭😭