huge fucking mistake (not cheating i just prematurely pushed him away in order to protect myself from his sense of humor) and by doing this i not only hurt him but myself. im just rambling bc i dont have any friends 😅 and the two that know know that i sound like a broken fuckin record atp

but anyway....i'm coping fine i think but when im alone it feels fucking awful, like i never should have broken up w him in the first place. but i really wanted to stay single/celibate and i let him slip through my fingers over time and i will never not be hurt by this 😭 im grateful he at least