the downside to finally finishing a personal piece though. is that i spend all that time on it and it does feel good but it will give no one else serotonin but you. it's tough to be the only fan of smth you fixate on, i'm still figuring out how to deal with it

like yes i can create for myself and that's a good milestone. but when you hyperfixate, at least in my case, i rly wanna talk to ppl about it. but i don't want to talk AT anyone. i want to share in the interest??? but that's so so tricky when it's oc stuff and not fandom