i know why i still can't at least start trying to draw doujin/comic quite long thing.. based on fic i also wrote.. im scared.. im too scared.. i understand how.. how much i will put into this.. and i know how it will end for me.. i know that i'll like that thing.. even if not right after finishing..
i want too.. but again and again.. it hurts.. im sorry.. im an outsider.. twice.. im sorry i can't do the same and doing as.. .. forgive me please..
don't know from where i got this big love to draw them tired/sleepy.. tired from everything what happened with them.. .. my love.. sleep tight..
i see.. gif worked while writing post but doesn't after posting?.. they did a lot of work, here's a lot of things now.. maybe someday gifs will work as well or i just did smth wrong.. .. it's calm here.. without that views statistics.. what i missed of what was made but wasn't posted..
i didn't get support at the moment i needed it the most.. and it's nobody's fault.. not others.. not mine..? guess.. it's all my fault.. too weak.. so things just happened that way.. nothing more.. im sorry.. at least i tried..? maybe there's really no place for me.. i love you.. forgive me please
im too weak.. im sorry. . im so sorry.. i can't anymore.. im tired.. im tired.. it hurts.. im tired of feeling that im a failure.. ..maybe i really am.. i want to go home.. but there's no place for me anywhere.. forgive me please.. i made a mistake.. a lot of mistakes.. im sorry..