but then.. i will start to feel that im delusional about what i'd made.. because i know that only few people will like it.. that's.. so stupid.. knowing you do what you want and as you can but.. also wanting more attention and etc.. and thinking you did wrong and bad because you will not get it..

im blaming myself.. why.. just why.. why did i get into drawing that late.. wasted years before.. why.. this pairing.. why this reverse roles.. why that love to nsfw things.. but i love all this so much..