im so tired. im tired of feeling awful all the time

also its hard to feel like ill ever be a part of a group when theres people i dont like/dont vibe with. i was never going to have a place from the start. ..and very clearly being the odd one out. and still masking around every one

like.. why do i still feel horrible loneliness even when im hanging out with people n everyone getting into new games recently took me back to feeling like im not really a part of anyones friend group. ive always been outside of everyones orbit and i think i always will be

i dont know a single person whos truly on the same wavelength as me and its such an awful feeling

esp transmascs and just ppl with shared interests in general..

really wish i knew how to make friends so i could have more people to hang out with

lost another house lotto try for a medium. this shit is so exhausting man

these events have destroyed my logos savings

first 10 pull on second banner gave ash so i went for the rest and now have the full team rainbow

i AM having fun but my brain's just making it a whole thing that i dont know how to deal with