She has been Christian my whole life, & all my aunt's & uncle's lives, & raised all her children that way. I don't know how to describe it, but I've always sensed fear in her faith. & the faith of many of her kids is also warped &/hollow. & it's... I can see it (the genocide 🧡) all on display.

Trivia: I (Neurodivergent & Indigenous) was raised by white Lutherans, earnestly pursued that faith, believed those who told me I got to choose whether to be confirmed, & became the 1st—as yet only—kid not to be confirmed in the church where my great grandma was in the 1st ever confirmation class.

My struggle with reconnection is the direct impact of what happened to them. & it was on purpose. 🧡