doesnt feel like she has any direction or anyone to look foward to. While my feelings to her were suppressed i still liked her more than just a simple friend online. So i tried to help out a lot. Then i was broken up and completely broken and for next year i was just not functional human being
I fell in love so quicky with her (at that time she was still just a femboy), it being my first queer relationship, i made mistakes but i was also hurt a lot by her, lying and hiding things away from me. Ive kept contact with my current gf during that, we talked, she told me she is lost in life and
But i liked her too a lot, i cried myself to sleep due to it for about a month. This was at start of 2020, then during covid i kinda just didnt do anything as my part time job was closed and i had basically zero income so i wasnt progressing anywhere. In 2021 ive met through twitter my ex from SK
then started shaving, got some knee socks first then a full dress and became "femboy" era like she was. During that time she also told me she likes me (more than like a friend), but it wasnt meant to be then i had no option to meet her and i was still discovering self so it just has gone away.
She told me she was crossdressing, i was not cracked yet and it was kinda new to me then and it started cracking my egg, cause she was so pretty in the dresses she showed me, i was like could i be like that too, over the next year i started losing weight (i was at 85kg ish then thanks to depression)
Got to know each other through discord 6 years ago thanks to her being wrong about hots hero i was very good at back then in discord i wasnt in but my friend salted about it, so i asked him to direct her to me. And then we just started chatting daily about more than just hots. 1/X
I think i always wanted to end up with her even when i was with someone else. I miss her so much. (pic very much related)
we had month one three days ago and i completely missed it :(