But again, I am made to feel like I am the bad guy for expressing how I feel about a certain situation. So I am just going to shut up and never express myself or my thoughts again to them. The world is already shitty enough. Now I have no one.
The one person I don't expect to clean is also the one cleaning by the way so it makes me feel even more shitty because I said I would keep the house clean for them.
I don't want to explain myself anymore. I don't want to justify my existence. I am tired and feel alone 90% of the time. But yeah, I am sure it's my fault for feeling this way or some shit right?
I am not the only person in this house but when it comes to cleaning, I hardly get any reminders that there are other people in the house.well, except for the mess that they make for me to clean.
Was leading on the way home and the coms weren't working. Wife needed gas and suddenly no one was behind me and I was like well, I dunno when i lost them, so I don't know what exit to loop back to, so I will just keep going. So rode home by my self. I just am not good at going places with peoole..
I just feel like I didn't live the life I really wanted to because I never had money to travel or afford stuff. It's always just been how are we going to survive and not go completely broke my entire life. Never broke free of the, we are poor and can't afford that," mentality and it is frustrating.
I just keep getting these sensati9ns that I used to when I was a child and it totally makes me flash back to my life back then and I feel like learning how the world works 100% killed my want to adventure. It all costs too much money and I never could make money well my entire life.
Just going to have to stick to the trusted bedtime iced coffee. That way I know what I am getting every time.
Lol the one on the left in the picture just started barking in his sleep and the other one woke up and looked at him like, you really doing this shit right now? And laid back down and went back to sleep.