I honestly tried that so much and I feel like I've gone through all my options for my current capabilities without success (for the improving myself, I'm not dragging down other trans people with me) and sometimes it's just out of reach for some of us.
What am I even supposed to do when my brain won't function properly on the daily to just take care of myself?
I wish I could relate to all the trans joy, but as time keeps marching on I can't but feel like I just failed my transition and that I'll never be happy in any way. I have never ever wanted to die than now and the future is getting more and more uncertain...
Being trans has honestly been just a series of trauma, isolation, bad experiences, failure to connect to any of my peers or anyone for that matter. I would be dead without transition but what I'm living right now doesn't feel anything worth living for, patiently waiting for when it'll be too much.
I'm honestly at a loss about what to do to stop being so isolated and feeling so bad about myself... Everything I tried failed, I'm out of energy, of hope, of everything. I can't seem to make connections online, offline, anywhere...
THE SISTERS OF DORLEY A closeted trans girl exploits a secret forced fem operation for free healthcare. CHAPTER 42: FINGER BONES is now free for all readers! Find it here: AO3: archiveofourown.org/works/353945...scribblehub.com/series/42187...
it is far away and transportation is getting quite expensive tbh
I think a whole lot of cis “allies” think we’re gonna aggrievedly but voluntarily submit to detransition and realize three months later that it’s no big deal; and are gonna be really surprised to find out that we’re prepared to risk displacement, unemployment, or our lives before detransition
Reminder that I have made an audiobook version of Dorley for those that might prefer this format! It's very much in the fan work category and maybe I'll keep going when I get back some motivation, maybe, we'll see...
