There is a work task I’ve been putting off for months. It took 40 minutes, it wasn’t that hard, and I feel immense relief that it’s done. I will learn nothing from this.

Not even that if you want to put something off you can do so for months without worrying about it too much?

My taxes are the only thing I don't do this with and I have no idea why.

<looks up from a revision that's going smoothly and was put off for ages because it seemed so daunting> <just like the last several times> Wait, what's that? Learning from experience? Naaaaah.

evergreen poast

This hurts me so bad.

Oh, this is so much me. I need to get myself addicted to relief so I will do anything, even those massively challenging (mildly annoying) tasks, just for the rush.

I understand this in my soul. I will also learn nothing, change nothing.

Congrats, perhaps you will remember it now.

You have just described my entire working life.