Yeah. That’s exactly what it feels like. As if the thought of another possible 40 years of this isn’t constantly eating away at the back of my mind

Taking time to rest and heal after a big episode sucks so hard. The only person who can enforce it is me, who really doesn’t wanna. Not that there’s a choice. Anyway, I deserve a little treat :3c

Brass in Pocket. I take psych damage every time I hear it

Me watching me going off the shits with no way of applying the brakes: Yeehaw bipolar

I’ve had doctors be like: well, hey! At least it isnt shortening your life! And i don’t know how to express how shitty that feels to hear

The next well meaning person to point me to mental health crisis hotlines is getting bitten. I’ve been bipolar for like 20 years or so now, and really the time is better spent trying to piss up a rope “Try having a cup of tea,” they say Ay cheers, just the ticket for severe mental illness, ta.

You know, like what abled people think happens for disabled people

Just for a little while, i want to not have to be brave or resilient or a fighter. I just want to breathe and have my basic needs provided for.

There sure is a lot of information in there and I can access none of it.

For me its the Burt Ward Gentle Giants dog food.