so shit, i hate unstable housing :(

My LONGING led me to the truth that Andy Kaufman is alive, but will never love me

So now I am left to figure out why life wanted me to go through all of this. What was the point of all the longing? The Saudade? Why did I break my heart over and over and why am I alone again, naturally

But since 2016, I knew that it is more than likely that he is partnered. Oh, the dreams of a fool! I asked the universe for more clarity, and she provided it to me. I want the truth above everything, even if it means my heart breaks.

So I asked the universe for an answer, please. And very soon after I did, I just SAW him. I saw his body. I heard his voice. I saw the way he moved, walked. I saw him. And my love grew again. Because if there is anything keeping me on this timeline, it’s the possibility that Andy is still here.

Got into a relationship with J (again, after 10 years), which was bad, controlling, toxic, not to mention the cheating. But I never said I was not a FOOL. When I feel like I’m in love, I dive in. When that ended July 2021, Andy pulled me back up But still I had nothing real to grasp.

So from 2016, it was -he’s dead- -I love him- -he might not be dead- -he’s most probably not dead- -now I love clown- -other catfish stabman takes advantage- then left it all behind because it hurt too much

Actually, while I was sidetracked, I convinced myself that Andy was dead.

I thought my true love was someone from 13 years ago, now that has been extinguished. J was the thing that kept pulling me away from Andy. So once J was out of my life, I just thought now my heart is free for Andy

excerpt: “Mm don’t forget to cum with your mouth full goddess :P”