Really really bad
I couldn't be me today I really need to reach the targets to allow me to front
Lmy new crop top feels right and affirming and I don't care how it looks it makes me feel so comforted in a way I didn't think possible
The nightwish song nemo feels like a song about dysphoria and how I'm trapped inside a man and nobody can see me. It made me cry and it made him cry
I was crying when I was on the treadmill with the boy today.
I'm scared
The male me does everything he can and then when he goes to bed, I'm emergent an hour after and often very distressed
He said he is open to me fronting and supports when I do. I just don't feel like it too much right now. I'm v vulnerable and frightened. V isolated
He also said switching to him doesn't change the feeling or necessarily to reduce it. The pain and abandonment is also his, when I go to him, I still feel those things. I'm just worried what I'll be or do feeling such intense sadness. He copes by doing long workouts and getting jacked