I've still been sleeping like shit. up all night despite being in bed early for me, but sleeping until 3pm. today I decided to switch it up. stayed up until 8 willingly, but fell asleep on the couch. woke up at 11:30 or 12 or something... feel like pure garbage but this is how I win

when I was hoping before bed that I'd wake up feeling normal, I didn't exactly mean to curl a finger on the monkey's paw and welcome insomnia back into my life.. being cuddleless SUCKS and I really should've thought to get my weighted blanket out like 6 hours ago. maybe it would've helped

something I really find frustrating in a self-defining manner is that it really is just easier for me to say I'm a lesbian when that isn't completely true. I don't fuck with queer as a label and I'm only interested in women romantically. However.

I do need to nap desperately. turning this should-be sleep into a nap by promising myself pizza if I wake up because I couldn't eat very much at all today.

my partner came out of surgery okay 💕 if all goes well I'll be seeing her tomorrow

literally thinking about finding a hotel that does day stays so I can get some sleep

women will be awake several hours past the point where they wanted to be due to the horrors (I'm women) September is not a good month for me when it comes to loss, so I'm more negatively unhinged than normal. so, since nobody was picking up various phones, I thought something terrible happened

I have a waxing appointment tomorrow and at this rate I'm going to start making a map of countries I've had my coochie snatched in. so far it's going to be two

I've been getting the dregs of work tea while I've been away, and the person they chose to hire bombed their training and failed their qualifying test. they're also uninterested in a rewrite because they just started college 🤡

I was able to get in touch with my doctor's reception yesterday because I needed to have my bloodwork results forwarded to my physiotherapist - problem is, my blood looked normal. like, no notes. that is a problem because my blood is super fucking haunted (she only Looks normal. but watch out!!!)