in some ways her behaviour was worse than the statement suggests. but I was in this state where I was bouncing back and forth between wanting to defend her and hating her, and to an extent I still am. I suspect if I had tried to get into that it would have been a lot messier

with this much distance from it, looking at the by my count twelve visible scars she left me, I will say that I don’t think I can take any reparative or rehabilitative process she wants to do seriously, so she’s going to have to do them without my blessing if that’s the way she wants to go