I love that kink is a part of my life, itās important to me, and I donāt think it is fair for me or anyone to come away with the idea that because of it they deserve to be assaulted, or that that assault is in some way mitigated
Itās tempting, even (especially?) as a victim, to do the Gus Grissom, āweāre engaged in a dangerous businessā thing, but that isnāt true and itās a poisonous idea because when kink is involved there should be more caution, not less
Iām happily into some fairly heavy kink, I have been for years, with a fair number of partners. Thatās not an uncommon experience for me, thatās a unique one
As far as extreme kink goes, I have a pretty vivid memory of lying face down on her bedroom floor, crying harder than I ever have in my life into her carpet, and her doorbell ringing, and I remember thinking it must be the police because of how much I had been screaming, and feeling resigned
I havenāt found any of her apologies convincing or meaningful, but I donāt want her to try and make any more to me. Iāve thought about her as much as I ever want to, and she and everyone else will just have to deal with that as they choose
with this much distance from it, looking at the by my count twelve visible scars she left me, I will say that I donāt think I can take any reparative or rehabilitative process she wants to do seriously, so sheās going to have to do them without my blessing if thatās the way she wants to go
in some ways her behaviour was worse than the statement suggests. but I was in this state where I was bouncing back and forth between wanting to defend her and hating her, and to an extent I still am. I suspect if I had tried to get into that it would have been a lot messier
itās deliberately terse, and if it doesnāt talk about what we want done or what kind of ārehabilitative processā we want to happen, itās because the only way I could force myself to be at all dispassionate was by not mentioning those things
alright, look, I wrote the statement we agreed to put out and I wrote it that way for a reason. we wanted to minimise our embarrassment and humiliation and the ammunition we were handing to freaks and bigots, and we didnāt want Sophie to harm herself or get harmed by anyone else