Y'all! Bully Holly into starting a Ko-Fi, so she can fund a rebuild of her work rig. That way we won't be deprived of her kick-ass art, should the contraption go kaput ... and like, she's pretty cool too. So it's not like the additional funding isn't well deserved bullybullybullybullybullybully XD
Do eeeeeeet
anyway, thanks for coming to my TED talk. gonna try very hard to stay off the soc meds for a few days. it's gonna be tough, because i've enjoyed the dopamine from interactions and i'm a stim seeker XD i should be back with some nice art by mid-week, depending on how good fortune flows
have been pleasantly surprised by how well a return to Bsky has gone. didn't think anyone would be happy to see me, after melting down the way i did i've never known how to properly handle being bullied. but that's an explanation, not an excuse. for what it's worth, i am sorry for how i behaved
it's been a rough couple of years, and last year in particular was a brutal ride through Hell. but it's clear at this juncture that winds are changing, for better or worse. that affords some much needed peace of mind, and i feel like an enormous weight has been lifted from my chest
i'm hoping for the best, but regardless of where it goes, i'll know what i'm dealing with. i can face just about anything life throws at me, my resilience is beyond question at this point fear prevails in the absence of understanding. i'm very pleased that i might finally be free of said fear
there's still a high probability that it's cancer, especially now that i've got it in my collorbone area (checking all the boxes for some kinda lymph cancer) but one way or another i'll get an answer, and be able to chart a path forward. up until now, i've been stuck spinning in limbo
After close to 3 years of searching, i found a doc that will allow me to make appointments and communicate via text or email will finally be able to sort out the teeth i bit to pieces in my 20's, as well as get referrals for all the tests required to sort out the swollen glands in my neck
Naming this'un "Uninspired" because not only does it encapsulate how i feel when i can't latch onto a vibe that's flittering on the mind's edge, but the work itself is also terribly uninspired ... and i'm 100% fine with that tbh. they can't all be Guernica XD
