Do eeeeeeet

anyway, thanks for coming to my TED talk. gonna try very hard to stay off the soc meds for a few days. it's gonna be tough, because i've enjoyed the dopamine from interactions and i'm a stim seeker XD i should be back with some nice art by mid-week, depending on how good fortune flows

have been pleasantly surprised by how well a return to Bsky has gone. didn't think anyone would be happy to see me, after melting down the way i did i've never known how to properly handle being bullied. but that's an explanation, not an excuse. for what it's worth, i am sorry for how i behaved

it's been a rough couple of years, and last year in particular was a brutal ride through Hell. but it's clear at this juncture that winds are changing, for better or worse. that affords some much needed peace of mind, and i feel like an enormous weight has been lifted from my chest

i'm hoping for the best, but regardless of where it goes, i'll know what i'm dealing with. i can face just about anything life throws at me, my resilience is beyond question at this point fear prevails in the absence of understanding. i'm very pleased that i might finally be free of said fear

there's still a high probability that it's cancer, especially now that i've got it in my collorbone area (checking all the boxes for some kinda lymph cancer) but one way or another i'll get an answer, and be able to chart a path forward. up until now, i've been stuck spinning in limbo

definitely going to bed early tonight. hell, i suppose if i'm having trouble sleeping on any given evening, i can just boot up Compound for an hour. then i'll be collapsing in no time

ha! i'm merely getting my feet wet in abstract. you're the one with the mad skills my friend. you're the one who inspired me to give abstract a try, after all. i can only hope to be as competent as you one day 😉

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