Thank my past self and the past-self of my wife that we are to fucking traumatized by parents fighting that we can have a 'near divorce' talk and express our feelings raw but come to an agreement in the end.

but hey, I got to be happy for like 35m now I really just wanna vanish from the fucking internet, vanish from public life go live on a fucking cave and abandon everyone and everything I cared until this point at least I know that my cat would want to come with me

well, at least I laughed about something today thats nice

As I was writting down my things to do list of the day I just noticed that I only try to deeply care about people because that was my way to survive. Maybe thats why I feel like all my feelings are fake and I never deal with how insecure I feel. heh at least brainy brain is working a bit

bouta go non verbal, who cares

never fucking felt safe anywhere shit can be stripped from me anytime, by anyone. just tired of conceding, of talking diplomatically to never have it done back to me a tiring effort done with every single person I meet because I want to be kinder and kinder every day but sometimes this hits you hard

i just wanted to rest today man just wanted to have a comfy, chill night

but I attempt to be/am a very polite person and will not get angry irl or even have a discussion with her about it just a nice, innocent and normal women who will gladly welcome this BITCH INTO MY HOUSE TO WASTE MY QUALITY SUNDAY TIME WITH MY WIFE :)

RIGHT AS I WAS HAVING A CUTE MOMENT TALKING ABOUT HOW THINGS EVENTUALLY ARE HARD AND EVERYTHING: MY FUCKING MOTHER IN LAW COMES AND DEMANDS TO STAY UNTIL HER BITCHASS NEICE LEAVES THAT STUPID ASS CHURCH GODDDDDD FUCK IT I DONT CARE, YOU DIDNT TELL ME YOU WERE COMING FIND A BAR A RESTAURANT

A pessoa resolve vir na minha casa, sem ser convidada ou ao menos avisar e se acha no direito de entrar porque "ligou e mandou mensagem no celular".