he's just the best fuzzy little guy I could have ever raised

and he at least whenever I'm anxious specifically comes to sleep at my chest and purrs to calm me down never had to teach this mf anything he just did it multiple times

because theres gonna be a fun one that will of course turn this into an extremelly toxic behaviour of asking if you are alright all the time forcing you to always fake that you are. because that person's worry will overwhelm you into being ok. not that you will be, you just supress it out of fear.

and then to think that I would like someone to pay that sorta attention to me in a healthier way, not in the way I had to watch my parents, would be cool and all but this would narrow down the people I could be with for my life to...yea zero

just a normal stormy day when the soil became too wet, you've shown some cracks and tilted a bit. but then all the sudden you just 'overreact' to something and all the tiny little cracks give you a breakdown. not a big one yet, you know, gotta be at work at 8:10 with a smile on my face

sometimes all those tiny little things, smaller than putting sincerity on the things you do. eventually those tiny little rocks thrown at you accidentaly start to make cracks on you and you break down gracefully.

cant have shit

nvm I just don't want to I dont care anymore, I was not feeling that safe at home anymore so who cares. Just gonna at least try to lock myself in my room and yea, at least try to feel safe somewhere I can actually be alone.

JUST SO THIS BITCH NEVER COMES BACK

AND TO EVEN HAVE THE FUCKING RUBRIS OF SHOWING ME HER PHONE AND SAY SHE SENT A MESSAGE BEFORE SHE CAME. WE DIDN'T SAW IT WHO FUCKING CARES IF YOU CALLED MY HOUSE AINT A PUBLIC ONE OOOOO GOD I WANNA JUST BARGE OUT OF THE BATHROOM NAKED AND TELL HER TO WAIT IN THE CAR WHILE I HAVE SEX