Okay so I did a lot better with the office yesterday than I did today. Had to leave early today because I was paranoid and thought my food and water were poisoned. Rescue meds and a big nap later and I’m feeling a little better and feeling accomplished for navigating stressful situation with grace

Anyway I really miss my cat, I hope he is being a big brave boy

Tomorrow I have to go into the office for work for the second time since my schizoaffective diagnosis two years ago and I am terrified and paranoid about it. Last time I was really not doing well and left early. Here’s hoping tomorrow is better

IT IS NOT A HOTDOG NECKLACE IT IS CALLED A HAMULET AND WAS GIVEN TO ME BY A REAL SHAMAN!

Years ago, before I knew I was schizoaffective, I told a friend I was hearing voices. I’m lucky that my hallucinations are rarely mean or rude to me but it would’ve been super cool if that friend had followed up and asked more questions because maybe I would have realized sooner that I was unwell.

hell yeah im DTF dumb, tired, & failed

i don’t think i am psychotic right now but i only hallucinate visually when i’m really ill so this has thrown me a bit

i rarely hallucinate visually but i just had one that has me questioning a) how stable i am and b) how much insight i have

goodnight bluesky